The Loneliness Of The Path Less Traveled

I sat across the table from one my childhood heroes. He worked for 30 plus years in the underground church in a country I wont name here. We would get somewhat coded letters informing us about his ministry work and how we could be praying. To me he was the James Bond for Jesus. As I was thrilled to have breakfast with them, I was also thrilled to share with him the calling that God had been pulling my family into. I wont forget what he said. “Im warning you Phil, if you go down this path, walking by faith and following God with everything that you have, It can be a lonely path. Lonely but worth it.”

I reflect on that conversation often as it has been years now since that breakfast meeting and I have often gone to God and unburdened my heart with the weight of the loneliness that has brought me to tears. I’ve often wondered why, the closer I get to God, the more I feel like a rejected organ transplant in the American church. I wonder if it is my own convictions, or my own pride, or my lack of trust that has led me to this place of loneliness, and some times I think that does play a part in it. I also think it might be partly to do with a decline in the American Church culture where anyone can call themselves a christian, but it can be harder to come across saints that have spent time with God personally, and have fallen in love with Him and with who He is instead of being satisfied just agreeing with the ideas about Him. 

I wont go on to bash the church, I know she gets a good deal of that already, but it is something that has been my biggest wrestle as I follow God and His call upon my life. I’ve also spoke to others who have been trail blazers and followers sold out to the kingdom and many of them have felt the weight of the same sorrow. 

So you might be here as well. You might be looking for a tribe to belong to, a people to connect with. Im hoping to build that here on The Unphiltered Life. If you are called by God to do something, and you find yourself wrestling to sort out what that calling is, or how to go about accomplishing it, Lets do that together. Reach out and email me at unphilteredlifeinfo@gmail.com and lets connect. 

Blessings,

Phil Morris